I speak, I cry out – Refuge

Psalms 91:9-16
If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”


Yesterday I was made a fortified city, God enable me to be a iron pillar and a bronze wall. He said to me they will fight against you, but will not overcome you. For those of you who know me, God has been calling me through his word, dreams, and reaffirming his call through other people. When I hear him it is often not a booming resounding gong, but an inner voice, singing me peaceful lullabies with a fearless strength of bronze. Sometimes when he speaks I scratch my head, I pray, repent, and humble myself before the throne of his grace. Usually his voice jumps off the page as my bible is illuminated in multiple colors and hundreds of notes. We had been Rome 4 days, and I heard God loud and clear every day. A most consistent message since I arrived in Italy. Here are a few of the verses I kept in my journal:

Jeremiah 1:17-19
Get yourself ready! Stand up and say to them whatever I command you. Do not be terrified by them, or I will terrify you before them. Today I have made you a fortified city, an iron pillar and a bronze wall to stand against the whole land—against the kings of Judah, its officials, its priests and the people of the land. They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the Lord.

Isaiah 52:6
Therefore my people will know my name;
therefore in that day they will know
that it is I who foretold it.
Yes, it is I.”

Isaiah 52:12
But you will not leave in haste
or go in flight;
for the Lord will go before you,
the God of Israel will be your rear guard.

Isaiah 52:15
so he will sprinkle many nations,
and kings will shut their mouths because of him.
For what they were not told, they will see,
and what they have not heard, they will understand.

Isaiah 51:16
I have put my words in your mouth
and covered you with the shadow of my hand—
I who set the heavens in place,
who laid the foundations of the earth,
and who say to Zion, ‘You are my people.’”

Exodus 4:12-13
Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”
But Moses said, “Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.”

Isaiah 59:21
“As for me, this is my covenant with them,” says the Lord. “My Spirit, who is on you, will not depart from you, and my words that I have put in your mouth will always be on your lips, on the lips of your children and on the lips of their descendants—from this time on and forever,” says the Lord.

Psalms 130:5-6
I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.

Joshua 1:8-9
Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

⭐️Jeremiah 1:8-12
Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the Lord.
Then the Lord reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “I have put my words in your mouth. See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.”
The word of the Lord came to me: “What do you see, Jeremiah?”
“I see the branch of an almond tree,” I replied.
The Lord said to me, “You have seen correctly, for I am watching to see that my word is fulfilled.

I even wrote and compiled a scripture prayer from all the scripture God was pouring into my spirit. I kept say my God I hear you, thank you that I am strong, that you speak to me, put words in my mouth, make me fear nothing, that you give me courage, you fortify my body, Jesus you are good always, but what does “For what I was not told, I will see, and what I have not heard, I will understand” mean Lord? I praise you for telling me, thank you that I can see what I have not heard and I will understand. Saturday after a long day of site seeing I took the kids with the babysitter to go explore aka “shop”, in Rome. We were having fun, walking, and we decided to stop one last time for gelato. On our way down the street I saw a man levitating for the first time in my life. Trick or no trick, it was Satanic, and I made my kids say out loud “I am a child of God, in Jesus’ name I bind Satan from me. No big deal, he who is in us is greater than he who is the world, now let’s get gelato…we walk in and the girls and kenzie ordered right away. I said to the owner, my son has a nice, or tree nut allergy, can he eat gelato. He responded, milk chocolate, mango or strawberry. I said again no nuts, yes mam, I thought well not mango because that’s a nut, he doesn’t like strawberry, but I suggest anyway, no mom I want chocolate, ok David. He ate a big cup, getting it every wear all over himself. I became stern, and annoyed and tried to wipe, clean, whatever I could, all of us had chocolate everywhere. We walked back down Via del Corso, and he said mom I need eye drops, he had been asking all day, I said Dad just called and said he purchase you some…he will be here in 15 minutes. Ok mom but I see funny, ok David, I sighed, annoyed again, unjustifiable behavior. We walked past the levitating man again, I didn’t say anything but kids look ahead, however I caught his glance, and he hauntingly gave me a wink. We walked into a store I had been waiting to go into since I arrived in Europe, and the girls started trying on clothing. David starting complaining again about his eyes, and I said dad is coming. David calls I tell him my location, he says he is coming. All the sudden David falls of the couch and I pick him up, and his eyes are swollen shut, I scream to kenzie give me the Epi-pen I have to get to the pharmacy or hospital, take care of the girls go home. I call David and say where are you I have to give the epi. He is moaning, and struggling to breathe. So here I am in pick pocket ally, with a child going into shock, speak no Italian, and am on a walking only street. I kneel down crying,and pray:
Give me wisdom Lord, protect my son, he who dwells in your shelter will rest in the shadow of the almighty, you are my refuge, I bind Satan from my sons body in Jesus’ name, and nothing in all of creation can harm him or me, we are your children Abba, save him, work things together for your good, keep him from harm, your will, I praise you, because this is your plan, and your ways are perfect amen.

I am crying, I know what I have to do, but don’t want to do it, once I give the shot, we 15 minutes till it wears off, I can give another, but the after 15 more minutes time is up. I don’t know Italian, I see David running to me he carries David and we run to one of 50 soldiers standing with guns ready, and hummers as a guard and say:
I point to his eyes,
“need ambulance, hospital, help please”
I pull out the epi pen, and show them.
“What is allergy mam”,
“why you feed him nuts?”
“I didn’t, bad gelato”,
“ok, we call ambulance”
We are about to give it and am surprised there is no siren. David says we can’t give it until we can see the ambulance and know where to go, no ambulance, David is screaming:
“where is it, where is the ambulance?”
I am saying/praying, Lord Jesus life and life more abundantly. David III is pail, swollen, we don’t have time, I keep saying. Then the Holy Spirit said to me google hospital, I did and I saw there was a pediatric hospital a mile away, Pediatric Hospital Bambino Gesu. I said David forget it, they are not coming, we have to get to the road and get taxi. David and I had been commenting the day before as an ambulance was behind us, and no one moved the ambulance frequently had to slow down, people kept driving as if nothing was happening…I guess they don’t get over for ambulances, huh. David gets a taxi to pull over, We both say emergency Hospital and I point to the google maps on my phone, David’s eyes, and pull out shot. The car does not move and I start praying out loud (I wasn’t aware, David told me after the fact as much of this seems like a slow motion dream, blurry, fuzzy, and I keep remembering more details as time goes on.
“In Jesus’ Name we will get there, you are protecting us, and as a follower of Jesus nothing can harm us,”
At the sound of the prayer the driver starts honking and gave me an extra large wet wipe to wave out the window, and like the Red Sea parting, with my arm held outside the window, the God of all creation sent forth his Spirit and angels and the cars started to move over as he was honking,I said: “David give it it’s an 11 minute drive,” he takes it and swings and shreak of a child in pain radiates the car, I keep praying out loud waving the white flag at points hanging out the window, monitoring my bodies proximate to the cars beside me at times, screeching tires, horns blowing and then the police pull us over, the taxi driver screams and all the sudden the police are in front and in back as an escort (last seen with POTUS) and have blocked the roads to give us a clear path to the hospital, and Rome traffic became smooth, I am seeing Gods’ mighty arm move, work, save, be our refuge, strength, and courage, I saw the cross on the hospital and I yelled praise Jesus. David threw Euros at the driver, and he threw it back at us, whoever you are taxi driver in Rome, bless you, thank you, thank you Jesus for moving his heart to help. I now know Satan was out to still kill and destroy, I do believe the levitating man was possessed and that wink, was from Satan, call me crazy, it was as if he was saying to me I am coming for you. I am only mentioning because, so often we hear about Satan and the unseen battle. But that day, it was seen and visible. As the Bible says: “if I acted crazy, I did it for God” to give him the glory, so I share this story to give him all the GLORY. Jesus deserves all the praise. As David says all the time the 3 shortest books in the world are Italian Heroes, German humor, and English cuisine…God thank you for moving supernaturally. To the Rome police who had compassion on our family, thank you. It is all so supernatural, David and I waited too long interacting with the police, they seemed to be every where, but slow to act. So the fact that they were moved to help, is a miracle, police after police along the way helped escort our car, thank you to the city police officers, you saved the life of a child, and thank you God, for parting our massive sea of chaos and moving so many mountains, for being our shelter and refuge, you are good and so faithful always.
We arrive in around 10 minutes and run into the hospital, and they would not see us (socialized medicine, we did not pay anything and got a new epi-pen for $70 euro), they said this is not an emergency, and I said to myself:
“All this God, and now this”
and he said in a loud voice:
“I spoke to you, I told you both what to say Blake, I go before you, and am behind you.”
Oh man looking back I am what the Old Testament calls a stiff necked person, I needed to say thank you God. David spoke and said: “I will not take your answer as ok, you are not a doctor we need a doctor right now.” We burst through the ER door. Again, they asked “why do you feed him nuts,” and I motioned to my phone and started to type English to Italian, getting phone out I typed in what had happened, as I am typing David reads the situation, as he knows five languages he knows when someone understand or doesn’t. They all gasp and rush him back and We breathed a sigh of relief. So Lord, I know you have me, you have him, you have us, and as I sit here and write it all comes full circle, you had me praying before the event would happen what I needed – before it happened you had me pray…the ambulance did not come, because you knew it would have never gotten there…you worked in a mans heart by the power of your name – from the greatest police force presence I have ever seen who were no help, to the hero taxi driver who was the least of these, Rome traffic does not move, but you in your power divided the chaos, I didn’t even see traffic move for the Dutch royals, God you alone get the glory, It was all you Jesus – thank you. As I sit here typing the verse you placed on my heart earlier in the week from Isaiah 52 all the sudden makes sense.

Isaiah 52:15
so he will sprinkle many nations,
and kings will shut their mouths because of him.
For what they were not told, they will see,
and what they have not heard, they will understand.

So Lord, I now understand why you didn’t tell me, because, I didn’t need to know, I needed to trust. You say before they call I will answer. Answer you did indeed, because YOU ARE THE REASON HE IS ALIVE. Only you, to you be all the honor, glory, and praise forever. This is the prayer I started praying Thursday. I create prayers based on certain scriptures the Lord highlights for me, I name them, so when I need prayers with scripture oriented for specific things, I pull out a compiled list quickly. I named this prayer I speak, I cry out, and I cry out from the highest point Thank You Jesus.

Your word is in my heart like a fire
Whenever I speak
I cry out
Lord today I take the cup you have prepared for me to bring to others
I will go and offer it those you have sent me to offer it to
Show me where to go and I will offer your cup
That never runs dry
When I am afraid
I will not fear because you are with me
You strengthen me and make me strong
In my earthly weakness, I fear nothing
I do not lack courage, because you are my strength
Nothing can harm me when I walk with you
You make me like a bronze wall
Fortified with your word and supernatural strength through the Holy Spirit
You will speak to me, and tell me what to say
I praise you that your words come out of my mouth
they will fight against me
but will not overcome me,
Because you are with me
You alone Jesus rescue and save me
You save me from the hands of the wicked
and deliver me from the grasp of the cruel
I am not afraid
You are my shield,
And my very great reward
for you, Lord will go before me,
the God of Israel will be my rear guard.
For what I was not told, I will see,
and what I have not heard, I will understand
Your Spirit, who is on me, will not depart from me, and the words that You have put in my mouth will always be on my lips, on the lips of my children and on the lips of their descendants—from this time on and forever
Yes, Lord, walking in the way of your laws,
I wait for you;
your name and renown
are the desire of my heart
I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
“You have seen correctly, for I am watching to see that my word is fulfilled.”
You will make me a wall to your people,
a fortified wall of bronze;
they will fight against me
but will not overcome me,
You are the great I am
And you are with me
You rescue and save me,”
You will save me from the hands of the wicked
and deliver me from the grasp of the cruel.”
No one will be able to stand against me all the days of my life.
You say to me “As I was with Moses, so I will be with you;
I will never leave you nor forsake you.”“
You put your law in my mind
and write it on my heart
You are my God,
and I am your child.
All may know you,
from the least of them to the greatest,”

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